Let's start with the positives:
- Great hospital: large and very busy compared to the last hospital I went to. I even got lost looking for the office & ran into a very nice Indian surgeon who graciously walked me to the elevators I needed to take. Unfortunately, I don't think he knew what I meant when I said I was looking for Womens Health because I ended up in the ICU area. Yikes.
- Great waiting room: large, spacious, updated. They had a large saltwater tank as you walk in and as soon as I saw it, I knew it was meant to be. The front desk was nice and large and open.
- Wonderful staff: friendly & laid back.
- Lovely nurse: young & so so nice.
- Great doctor: listened to me, asked me questions, did a much more thorough breast exam than my past doctor. Also allowed me to get dress after the exam and she came back in so we could have a real conversation. She is really great.
After this, assuming my eggs are fine, she wants to do an HSG. This is the same thing my previous doctor wanted to do and I was hoping not to have to. Looks like I'm all out of look and I'm okay with that. I'm ready to take this test on (mostly because of my amazing parents and their gracious offer to pay for it). IF the HSG shows no blockages, I will be put on clomid and she will pair that with insemination. IF the HSG shows a blockage, IVF will be the only resolve.
Hearing her say those 3 letters... ugh.... I sat there playing with my hands, picking at my fingers, to try to distract myself from crying. How could my life be coming to this? That's what I immediately felt. Her telling me that made me feel like that's exactly what would happen .... like that was out only option. Then I realized, hey, it could still happen naturally! Although, she did say that 80% of couples will get pregnant within 12 months & if you haven't yet and keep trying, your chances decrease with every month that passes. UGH.... talk about depressing. She wasn't trying to be rude or mean or insensitive by saying that. She was just informing me -- which she did a lot of in this visit and it was much appreciated. My previous doctor would just be like "okay, we'll do HSG next, here's the info, this is what it is, so call and schedule that". Done and done. This one maps everything out and tells you what each thing might mean for us. I love that.
So - I didn't get a miracle drug to take.... looks like we'll really have to work at this. But I'm ready. :-)
Hi! I found your blog and decided to read your back postings. It rings a bell with me because I had trouble conceiving 24 years ago. We stopped short of IVF because my husband had a little operation (I'm sure he'd say differently) to open up a blockage in his testicles caused by vericose veins. My daughter will be 24 on December 22. When we wanted to have a second baby, we tried and tried, and...nothing. So again he went for the same procedure and voila! My son will be 18 in November. I completely understand all the feelings you are having. It really sucks to not just be able to get pregnant the way everyone else seems to! I used to say that some women can just sit on the bed and they're pregnant!! It's very, very frustrating, and you feel like you're all alone out there. Best of luck to you, and I look forward to your posts. Regards, Joan
ReplyDeleteJoan, What an interesting story - thank you so much for sharing it with me! A blockage in the testicle, I would have never even thought of that. Did you finally have a doctor that suggested that be looked at? It is so crazy to think that it could be one small thing that needs fixing that nothing else you would have done would have helped. It's kind of scary... I am hoping these next few tests I have will tell us a little more. Thank you so much for taking the time to stop in and share your story with me! I love hearing happy endings, it never gets old. :)
DeleteHi Molly! I'm happy to share my story with you. Yes, actually my obstetrician recommended my husband go to a urologist to get thoroughly checked because all my testing came back fine. The urologist was able to feel the veins (my poor hubby) and thought that might be the problem. The sperm weren't strong enough to make it to fertilizing my eggs because the veins were kind of choking the sperm.
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